its been a long time i once blog..

Tired le.. not tired of work stuff.. work stuff i getting to get used of it.. everyday is tiring when working..

I am tired of talking much to her..

whenever i wanna talk to her wanna feel her concern for me mayb one day of tiring job.. talk to her maybe will feel abit better but they way she talk back really turn me off..

almost going 3 years she seems like she dun understand wat i wan..

i also nv asked much really.. just mayb sometimes i am tired or mayb i wanna tell u tings but u seems like so busy.. i really dunno u r busy wif wat? come back home relax abit talk to me got so difficult?

i been keeping quiet and i dun wanan voice out but when i voice out u just tell me it is normal ma.. of cos it is normal cos i nv voice out.. keep quiet keep in heart oso not rite..

really seems like there is a difference between her and me.. two worlds we r living in..

u dun tell me in ur heart is work but no me? tel me u come back work oso tired.. but cant be tired till talk to me oso difficult.

i dunno wat to say she dun understand really.. i not finding fault wif her just wanna tell her i feel tired i mayb need u to care awhile i will feel better. simple tings oso she seems like she cant do it..

I actually plan to bring her to sky dinning this weekend to give her a surprise and i almost book the ting but i tink i consider cos sometimes do so much i find it pointless le..

Basically the word is tired....

1 month plus i nv blog le.. I'm tired le.. always is the same prob.. after so long le. u dunno my character ma? Just a simple asking, in the end i get nthing but just quarrel. Is tt call possessive or control? cant I know wat u r doing n cant u share wif me? sharing wif each other isnt a hard ting to do so rite? shldnt we know more abt each other life? I dunno. just kinda of sick n tired le.. I am not coping well wif work n stress n her.. work is giving alot of stress.. which cause me to b tired due to my stress n i cant slp well at nite.. n my temper is getting bad.. just a bit of ting will piss me off. even when working i cant control much for my temper. I dun suit this job or wat?

JUst came back home. drive ard singapore dunno where to release my stress my sadness my worries. she dun even know how stress i am. everytime i just show her that acutally i am just a happy go lucky guy but in my heart there is alot of ting which i need to clear.. mayb she dun gif me tt kind of right attitude tt i will wanna tell her my stress stuff. frankly speaking i dun haf a listening ears not even someone whom i love.. mayb just 1 day i will break down.. gif up everything. n by tt time mayb its end of the world le...

1 month plus i nv update liao lor.. haha.. so long le.. time passess so quickly.. well i bought a car le... Finally i haf my own car... affordable. nice n ok la.. its kia Picanto.. which i find it ok la. dun need buy too ex no point rite.. now waiting for the COE biding next wed.. hope i get it.. later going to book in soon.. n i been here for almost 3 months in Tracom.. fast fast fast.. i only waiting for my POC...

anyway dear's credit being misused by an unknown subject.. dunno who.. make a report to OCBC bank n called SIStiCS becos the person used it to buy tickets from SISTICS... Went down to the POlice Station to make a report oso.. long waiting time plus long time in writing the police report..

I hope tt idiot will b caught n b JAILED N FINE... idiiot rite used ppl's credit card.. If u no money just dun spend la.. Y must b so greedy to used ppl $$ n then make ppl so troublesome.. Wanna commit an offence just go rob the bank u get more $$ then u misused ppl credit card la.. stupid..

its sunday again... sianz lei so fast.. anyway confinement le bah for this week.. i tink only able to book out on sat... timing i dunno.. unless miracle happen on WED morning.. demoralised.. no much of mood going back.. book out, time spend on weekend is wat i call life.. now back to regimental lifestyle again.. sianz.. wat to do.. boh bian i choose it.. pay is gd everyting is gd la.. but food in there no gd life in there oso no bery gd.. haha...

so fast weekends is gone again.. tml morning book in again.. gonna reach by 730am.. got uniform inspection at 745am... 1 week dun inspect will not kill ma.. gonna wake up so earli again... argHHhH.. i'm staying far u know...

haiz.. sianz.. anyway got a gd weekends bah.. dear was staying overnite wif me on sat till today kinda of happy do our cooking together.. happy is the word i can describe.. if every book out is like tt haha i will b contented...

anyway might haf to stay in till sat evening then can book out due to.. haiz.. bad tings la.. always a killer for me.. hate it.. for this ting... i need to book out.. i dun wish to stay back for extra training....

while another 5 more hours is book in le.. sianz har.. got the feeling dun feel like book in.. haha.. go AWOL... (Absent without offical leave). while ytd go taka n bought her a COACH wallet.. she like it me too like it.. mayb her exams nv score well tt y she not happy so i decide to make her happy n get a wallet for her lor.. hmm at least like tt her feeling change n become happy bah...

watch harry potter ytd too.. hmm yucks it sucks.. the storyline not really tt gd la.. not as gd as last time mayb when he was young.. now harry potter is talking abt relationship le.. lolz.. abit lame sia..

anyway tml start my home team basic course le.. 8 days dunno can book out or not.. pls i wan book out....